Bustin’ out!

so I am still in the hospital in Iowa city right now as I write this blog, however I could be going home tomorrow.  I am both excited yet terrified at the same time.  I am excited to be able to see people I care about everyday, but what sucks is I have started caring about some of the people here so much and I am going to miss them.  There are so many people here that are just so awesome!!  🙂 I had a goal to beat my uncle to my moms house lol, he will be back on July 2nd.  Looks like I might get there… 

I am terrified to go home because there is no panic button there, and nurses to run in during the night when the alarms go off if I stop breathing.  Here if my heart rate gets to a certain point an alarm and red lights start flaahing and people run in and fix the problem.  Being alone at home with the dog a cute as heck black lab but what is he gonna do besides piss himself and leave a mess for me to clean up??!!!  I wasn’t so scared till this sleep study guy basically told me that even if I lay a certain way in bed that I will have a stroke and die in my sleep.  Which is a contridiction to what everyone else has said which is that I am doing so well.  of course he also said if you lose more than 2 lbs a week there is possibly something wrong. and everyone else says its because I am working so hard.  I am working my tail off!! Everyday I push harder and farther!  there are days where everything hurts but I push through it and keep on moving!  There is so much life to live and i wanna live it! 

hospital stay

ok so I have been in the hospital for over a month now so I have not had anyway to write let alone mind capacity to do so.  It took me over an hour to remember my screen name to get logged in to write this post lol.  I am still in the hospital at the moment but doing much better than I was a month ago.  I can walk around and do many normal people activities again some of them I need assistance with but things are going better everyday.  Sorry this is short but thats really all I have.  I have quite a bit going on here so I have had to stop twice already and every time I get intteerupted I forget what I am doing so i am going to stick with this I will write a longer one in the future when I am feeling even better!