psycho bitch

you know it is absolutely retarded when u are hungry to fucking break shit and hit people and throw stuff rather than opening ur can of fucking food and eating u dumb whore.. ya you…  i assume u guys read this just from comments that i randomly hear.  you are the most retarded fucking psycho bipolar bitch i have ever fucking met.  if you dont like the way those fucking kids act well i guess you shouldnt have let them act that way for so long towards their mother…  u thought it was funny till they did the same shit to u,,  well guess what now im the one laughing..  and no im not picking up that shit and yes i will remind you later who the one was that broke it…


Life can be so randomly strange.  One minute you are talking to someone all the time wanting to be around them every second of the day and they are your best friend.  One minute later they do something stupid and you hate their guts.  Then you look back a couple years later and start to miss the good times you had.  I was organizing pictures today remembering some really funny things some friends and I used to do just for the hell of it, and man I missed those times.  I remembered times when I used to be so much more trusting.  What really sucks is that when the stupid things happened and I lost trust in them it made me lose trust in everyone else too.  I used to want him near me and as close to me as possible.  Now I am scared to let him get too close.  I know I hurt his feelings when I push him away but I dont know how to change either.  I so badly wanted him to be close with me like that the other day but when he tried I completely freaked out.  I really hope he gives me another chance.  I love him more than anything and I know this is not his fault.   I often take things out on him that have nothing to do with him what so ever.  I am not sure why I do this but I think I am just trying to protect myself.   I would do anything for him.  Until tomorrow I am stuck with my pictures.


Have you ever missed somoene so much that you craved them?

I have been sitting here missing someone so bad that I just crave the taste of their lips, the smell of their hair after a hot shower, the smell of their skin.  I want to wipe the hot sweat beads from their chest after a night of passion.  I want to nibble on their neck so they get that smile that I think is the most adorable in the world.  God I am about to cry thinking about how much I miss this person.  We haven’t even been apart that long which is why this is probably silly to most.  I guess you don’t really know how much you miss someone till you have to be completely apart and cant even talk to one another all day.  I just want to cuddle themand hold them all night.  running my fingers through that dark hair.  nibble and lick your ear!  Baby I love you!!!  I hope we are together forever. 


dedicated to the biggest asshole I know.. (dont drop the soap)

Its funny to watch clueless people.  You know the ones!  They are the ones that think the whole world is in love with them and they are so hot and so cool and think everyone thinks they are funny and all that.  They keep saying shit and keep saying shit and dont know why they get yelled at.  hmmmm…  I am sitting here not involved in a situation watching it from outside the box and giggling to myself because people can be so randomly dumb.  What is funny is even though over half the people around the person are two seconds away from clocking this other person they keep on running their dam mouth about shit they know nothing about. Keep running it to everyone its really funny cuz I am just ignorning and I find it fun cuz I can sit here on the outside looking in at all the random retardedness from someone who is of health wise perfect mental health.  I guess I just dont get people like that.  People who cant keep their hands off of other people.  and have to hit people when they walk past them and jump into other peoples conversations.  Also these same people who think they have to lie about the most retarded things… like..  no it wasnt me that stole that persons lunch then two minutes later the empty rappers are found in that persons bag and the person is all coming up with the dumbest excuses of why like “well he annoyed me thats why I did it”  I mean come on who gives a fuck…  people in life are going to annoy you.  That does NOT mean that you can steal from them or malest them or hurt or harrass them.  eventually you will get turned in and u will go to jail.  What I am trying to say here is you know who you are and most of the people who will read this know who I am talking about.  Do not ask me for anything ever again cuz I am going to continue ignoring your dumbass…


On the brighter side of the news I am having fun enjoying my time with my friend.  He is a total sweet heart.  O FYI..  yesterday morning was awesome.. had so much fun..  and anyway my good friends always know how to make me happy.


Too late to apologize

Today I decided what would happen from this point on.  You had a chance to be everything to someone.  or have someone be your everything.  In the mean time of you playing around with your big boy toys and other people someone in my life showed me that there is so much more than always waiting. 

He showed up from out of no where came out of the shadows.  Telling me sweet things without meaning to.  In fact they were the same sweet things he has been saying all along I just finally took the time to listen to him.  I always thought of him in one certain way keeping him like a mom does a small child never changing forever.  He has changed though but not too much he is still the same Luckily for others I am not the only life he is trying to make better.  He has put a few smiles on other faces as well. 

worst week

Well hello for the day.  I would really like if my readers would comment every once in a while and let me know what you think or something or who you are.  That would be just great.  Let me just tell you that this has been one of the worst weeks of my entire life.  I just dont know when it will all end.  Semester tests sucked atleast I passed I guess.  I keep getting dragged around and injured by people who do not need to be touching me in any way and I am so sick of it. 


someone please help me.  I just want to be me again and happy.