Bustin’ out!
so I am still in the hospital in Iowa city right now as I write this blog, however I could be going home tomorrow. I am both excited yet terrified at the same time. I am excited to be able to see people I care about everyday, but what sucks is I have started caring about some of the people here so much and I am going to miss them. 
There are so many people here that are just so awesome!! 
I had a goal to beat my uncle to my moms house lol, he will be back on July 2nd. Looks like I might get there… 
I am terrified to go home because there is no panic button there, and nurses to run in during the night when the alarms go off if I stop breathing. Here if my heart rate gets to a certain point an alarm and red lights start flaahing and people run in and fix the problem. Being alone at home with the dog a cute as heck black lab but what is he gonna do besides piss himself and leave a mess for me to clean up??!!! I wasn’t so scared till this sleep study guy basically told me that even if I lay a certain way in bed that I will have a stroke and die in my sleep. Which is a contridiction to what everyone else has said which is that I am doing so well. of course he also said if you lose more than 2 lbs a week there is possibly something wrong. and everyone else says its because I am working so hard. I am working my tail off!! Everyday I push harder and farther! there are days where everything hurts but I push through it and keep on moving! There is so much life to live and i wanna live it! 
