worst week

Well hello for the day.  I would really like if my readers would comment every once in a while and let me know what you think or something or who you are.  That would be just great.  Let me just tell you that this has been one of the worst weeks of my entire life.  I just dont know when it will all end.  Semester tests sucked atleast I passed I guess.  I keep getting dragged around and injured by people who do not need to be touching me in any way and I am so sick of it. 

 

someone please help me.  I just want to be me again and happy.

 

 

 

 

Empty beer cans and beeping cell phones

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!  LOL…  too many cell phones and too many empty cans of beer and none of them are mine.  This sucks… why did I stop drinking again?!?  OMG…  people just giggle me sometimes and other times drive me nuts I have to get off of here cuz I can’t spell..  night.

You know who you are

No I didn’t nor will I ever forget that day.  You smelled so wonderful I just breathed you in.  You thought I was going to say no and started to rebuttel before I even answered you.  I guess my question is did you save the napkin? 

punch out

I have just decided that whenever you plan something so it works just right it is all gonna be blown to hell.  Oh an apparently I am not allowed to leave for less than a day without all hell breaking loose.  I decided to leave with some friends we were gonna be gone from saturday afternoon till 5 sunday (today).  well first I didnt get out of the house till 730 cuz people were being dumb and not cooperating and others running late on showing up.  We just get to where we are going and start to get things settled and realize we are gonna have to go back into town and get gas and some food and of course pepsi max for the pepsi addicts lol..  Yes we are weird and a lively caffine addicted bunch.  anywho it hadnt even been 10 minutes and we were already getting calls from people about shit that was just rediculous.  This person has gas and this person is arguing with this person about a toy.  who cares figure it out dont call me you are a grown adult almost old enough to be my dad why are you asking me what to do?  sheesh!  Got all that straightened out and went to the store got some gas and the breaks went out.  yippie!  now I have to shell out like $100 out of my ass to get it fixed.  That is not even the best part..  The evening kind of goes along a little better for a while and of course like every other time I go somewhere to get peace and quiet with my friends who are also trying to get away and get some quiet and just chill…  stupid drunk fuckers come in bein all loud and dumb not to mention the fact that they were gay and had to talk about things I never needed to know.  (Not saying that being gay is bad)  some of my friends I was hanging with are gay as well.  anyway..  They were loud all darn night till the early hours of morning, when for whatever reason my back decided to give out!  Let me just tell you OUCH MOTHER F#$%@!!!!!!!  I know I looked like a damn idiot I had to crawl to get anywhere for a bit then I could hardly stand all the way up when I stood straight I wanted to scream..  It still hurts!  dudddddddddeeeeeeeee it just now popped though aaaaaaaa…   that feels a little better.  muscle relaxer must have worked this time.  OK well I finally get ready to go to bed and guess what from where we all were we could hear the gun shot noises coming from some army type place thing and they didnt stop even when we were getting ready to leave it was still going on!!!!!!  gggggrrrrrrrrrrrr!!  That is not the worst part.  I found out my uncle died this from a weird phone call this morning. 

I get a call saying to call mom its an emergency.  I call mom and aparently I was supposed to  call dad ( who had changed his number and didnt tell me)  anyway she kind of gets pissy with me and gives the phone to my sister who gives me the details.  He had gone to get his teeth worked on had dental surgery.  Left the hospital was out for about an hour and died.  I am sitting there like omg!  I thought maybe it was some weird joke.  They were like noooo….  anyway she gave me my fathers new number I sit and gather my thoughts and breath for a minute taking in the new info I had been given.  Then I finally call.  My father answers and act like he doesnt know who it is at first then starts telling me all about everything and bad mouthing everyone under the sun.  It kind of pissed me off and I stuck up for peeps too he didnt care for that much.  anyway then he tells me one of my cousins kids had gotten ran over by the car accidently and had been in the hospital but was now out.  He is doing well by the way.  I did have to mention to him and the people that it happened to that you do not leave kids in the car alone and you dont let kids play around a running car!!!!!!!!!!  duh!  kind of like wear your damn seat belt it could save your freakin life!  anyway.  we at this point said F it and everyone packed up to go home.  I went on for most of the day acting like none of this news bothered me I am fine look at me I am so tough..  I got home went to go tinkle and freaked out and pretty much had a panick attack about got sick it was not cool.  Its all good though I cleaned the bathroom while I was in there then I helped someone clean up there bedroom a bit and I calmed down again.  Its all good.  Oh I also got to yell at an idiot that took my friend out and didnt treat her right.  he started all stuttering and stuff I think he is afraid of me or some shit.  What a dork.  well people I am just lettin ya know dont fuck with me this week cuz I might punch you in the face I have a lot of built up frustration and anger.

Internet stalkers

IT is a crazy and weird feeling when you look up from the work you are doing and glance across a room to see your face on someone elses computer.  LOL this has happened to me more than once.  The other day however I did not have a clue who this girl was and it still kind of bugs me.  To the chick reading my stuff who aparaently lives near me somewheres who are you???    anyway.  No I am not calling her an internet stalker.  just to make it clear.  Another thing that creeps me out is those people that have like 5 million different internet names and no matter how many times you block them they still end up back in the place where you hide all your friends inside your computer.. lol the internet.  There are a couple of guys in particular that annoy the crud out of me with this.  I just want them to leave me alone.  I guess I should be happy that I do not see them really in person anymore, but I don’t want them leaving me nasty messages all the time either and saying weird things about me all over the internet its rude, childish, and annoying.  (my ex boyfriends)  Havent dated either of them in years now!!  I don’t really know what to do either. 

On the lighter side of the news it is finals time!  One of my classes I am doing really well in so I am not worried but one of the other classes I am not doing so well so I am terrified that I will fail and look like a total idiot.

guitar hero

ok so there is nothing like knowing how much you suck first thing in the morning.  LOL..  I have been totally owened in guitar hero by a friend of mine.  No matter how many damn times I retry and redo I can’t get a higher score than 1250. 

ok so I was having a decent day then the piece of shit woke up and pissed me off I am so tired of his retarded dumb fucking shit he can go fuck himself in the ass for all I care.  I am so sick of this shit he thinks he is so fucking funny how funny is it gonna be when he is limping hes missing his penis and he cant move his jaw. 

NOT NORMAL

NOT NORMAL

Feelin a bit better.  I would just like to announce to everyone out there that I am NOT NORMAL!!!!!!!  please let me go on to explain.  all of my friends and JP..  think I should want to have kids and should want my relationship to be a certain way and do certain things.  Well not everyone in the world wants to have kids of their own.  Yes I do enjoy other peoples kids and think they are cute sometimes but they can also get on my nerves too. Please listen carefully to this part though…  I DO NOT WANT KIDS OF MY OWN RIGHT NOW!!!!!  I might not ever want them I do not know.  I just don’t!!  Don’t try to be my therapist about it and try to say I really do but bla bla bla…  Certain people are going to think I am only talking about you.  No I am talking about everyone that has done this to me.  Even my own mother at times!!  god love the woman, she needs to be patient.  OK I love you all and most of you have kids of your own and love them dearly and love having kids I know.  However its not for everyone.  Not everyone enjoys such thoughts.  He is going to hate me for putting it all out here but things would have to change in our lives for me to even consider the thought.  Things that are no ones business but his and mine.  Bottom line here is people need to listen to me when I try to tell you something and not try to force me to have your opinoins.  Its annoying.  That would be like me liking to eat pine cones and I tried to force you to say you like to eat pine cones when you think the thought is just obnoxious.  On the up side..  it was nice out for a while today.  I got to talk to my friend came up with some awesome ideas..  well ttfn..

Earth day

Happy earth day I hope you all took time out to hug a tree.  lol..  I know I plan to!  (big grin)  I love trees.  I am still sick.  Been filling trash cans with vomit all over town.  lol..  lady outside town at a gas station I go to frequently remembered me from yesterday and knew I had been sick and was all worried.  I would like to thank her for being caring and helpful..  David Letterman just talked about earth day.. Word!!!!!  Walmart is all about goin green.  Went and bought my non paper and non plastic reusable bags today and started doing other things to reduse reuse and recycle even more so than we were already. 

Oh by the way I am about to go out and buy a damn pregnancy test just to show all yall that I am not pregnant!  so HA!!!!!!!!  I will let you know what the results said and maybe take a pic so you know I am not lying and I am right and you are wrong. 

by the way there is this really neat church near the library that puts really clever signs up every week I really like you guys that is just freakin funny as hell…

icky icky

so I thought I was ok and feeling good and back in the swing of things so I just started doing a ton of crud and getting stuff done and what not…  Then I start getting this really weird feeling…  I get all feverish and hot and no amount of ice or cold water or fans blowing and windows open or being outside was helping.  my head started to hurt.  Next thing I know I am getting sick and it was nasty.. 

  

I filled that sucker over half full it was gross…  that was only one time of getting sick..

 

about every few minutes I was fightin to make it to the potty..  icky!!!  Thanks to the peeps who cleaned up the trash can for me…  that was nasty..  now my muscles hurt.  I want cuddles.

I wasnt lost but I am still not found either

hey there people.  I am sorry I have been away for a bit.  I have been getting some work done and what not.  I have also not been feelin to well so when I have had spare time I have been trying to get rest or catch up on laundry or get my readings done.  I have been on the go a lot.  The good news is I will have a lot more time once may comes around for peeps and homies.. lol..  I just am hoping that I am feeling much better by then..  Can’t wait to hang out with everyone.  Bowling?